I work with psychotherapists who refer their clients to me - but I don't work with Freudian analysts.
Keep in mind that most psychotherapists are fairly busy - as is anyone in a full-time job - so they're not going to have time to read all of your blog entries dating back from 5 years ago.
Some psychotherapists have held that prolonged sadness and agony in response to loss is the result of anger turned inward.